How I feel

I’ve been holding this back a long time.
I respected your whole I wanna stay single and talk to other guys thing but I lied when I said that.  It was cool at first but now it’s like what the hell.
I feel like I’m in a competition or something.  I don’t like feeling like that. I know you wanna test your options and stuff but you been takin too long….I totally wouldn’t be happy about you choosing to be with another guy.  But just tell me front and center so I’m not waistin my fucking time.  I’m not trying to force you to be with me or nothin either.  I’m just gettin tired of waiting with thousands of questions being asked from people like”are you and that one girl backing together yet”? Not that that should matter what they say though.  I just feel like this not a real “talking to each other relationship”.  Ever since I new years I decided to stop talking to the girls I was talking to.  Because I guess stupidly I was thinking we might get back together.  And I know it’s not about what I want I just needed to ask this “ARE YOU WAISTING MY FUCKING TIME? “…